Hell or heaven?

A place where no one cares about you....where everybody think u'r weird...A parody about a life...A dream where u never wake up....a false life...to be me....tht's hell....I would like to live in heaven...where I could be as I am..no like everyone wants me to be...To feel happiness..real happiness, no this fuckin' feeling....Now I've two personaliy problems...I'm narcicist and maniac...I always tried to be normal..but I can't...well..If I wouldn't exist....The world could be better....I dunno...It's just a fact...A fuckin fact about my fuckin life...