Hell or heaven?

A place where no one cares about you....where everybody think u'r weird...A parody about a life...A dream where u never wake up....a false life...to be me....tht's hell....I would like to live in heaven...where I could be as I am..no like everyone wants me to be...To feel happiness..real happiness, no this fuckin' feeling....Now I've two personaliy problems...I'm narcicist and maniac...I always tried to be normal..but I can't...well..If I wouldn't exist....The world could be better....I dunno...It's just a fact...A fuckin fact about my fuckin life...

MaN¡Ac

Just I used to be like all the other girls...I used to shine..I used to be happy..I guess...I used to play with dolls, eat...watch cartoons..happy movies, but I've never be a normal perosn..I hate this fuckin' word....everyone says...I'm normal...plz be normal...u're not a normal girl...What the hell is be a normal person...Well, when I was in 8th grade I tried, I really tried to be normal...I used to listen to ''norml'' music...I used to say ''normal'' things.....well, maybe I'm a maniac and be normal is my imposible dream...I don't know...just to think that no one cares of what u feel, If u die...no one cares...I thinks It's the worst feeling I've ever had.....or maybe to feel like I don't have any controlof my life...I really don't know. Well I think I should say something about my life...I don't wanna remember my childhood...So', I'm not gonna tell u anything about it...In 9th grade I was new in school..It was terrible, no one knows me...OMG....I'm nervious....shit¡¡¡, I've fell down...mm...what an embarrasment day....
Then with every day I started to belong more and more to school...Well, I think I've never belong but....u know, I used to feel that...In 9th grade I had more ''friends'', I don't kno w if I can be friend of girls who never know who really was I...In htis year I started having my double life..the theatre...lights....
I was so' stupid .I used to believe in peoplr...what a fuck???¡¡¡...Later I learned that I shouldn't trustin anyone....:''Cause I swear for the last time..I wont trust myself in u¡¡¡¡¡''.....Camera: ohh..From High school musical to linkin park...hahaha...Well,I really tried to be normal....so', I don't kknow...Classmates say that L.P..is strange, evanecence is emo....laura, are u emo?...no I'm not....¡¡¡you're emo¡¡¡....no¡¡¡¡.....accept that u're emo¡¡¡.....I don't know..., Laura..look at u're arms...there's blood in u're arm...., ¡¡u're emo¡¡¡¡¡.....admit it¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡.........FUCK U¡¡¡..., WELL, I'm not emo..because I'm nothing...I don't know who am I...
.Action:
''Laura, Stop cuttin' ureself......laura, 're sick¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡........We're gonna intern u¡¡¡¡¡
why you don't eat...
Lauraaa
YOU'RRE NOT NORMALLL
Then I turn on my tv...Desesperate housewives, Bree Van the Kamp: She act like she's hapy , even if she doesn't..¡¡¡¡...awesome...I wanna be like her...then, my great debut starts...
The curtain closes...:
''Laura, u're weird....''..I used to like the other one...what's happening to u.....
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
I don't care
I'm fine
Ilove life¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡
no, I'm not gonna change
FUCK EVERYONE¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡
NO ONE CARES WHAT I'M PUTTING HERE¡¡
because the function should continue.........
ATT:,,,,MANIAC...
T

Just another fuckin' paragraphs

I'm frustrated, I was reading about the little hannah bond and all about her life...Also, some people called her: stupid bitch, fuck u...etcetc...well, Its a wate of time, isnt't it?...NOW she's dead..UNDERSTAND IT¡¡¡..ok..that's all
why did I write the last time in spanish and now in englis....The answer is because I dn't know myself...it's just because I'm a stupid who cannot decide anything...I'm not perfect...just a miserable....And also I hate my double personality....I can show happiness, a lot...I guess...but, u know...when I wanna feel really, but really happy...I can't....but...It doesn't matter..people thnk I'm happy..so' they're happy too.....I don't care....I just know I'm a fucking doll...a doll who always obey...4 example...u told me..kim/laura..we're gonna go to quicentro shopping....Even I f I wanna go to the park..I said: ¡¡ok..that's amazing¡¡¡...hahaha...it sounds stupid....but It's because I'm stupid...who caes?....you?..I know u are probably thnkn...:what a loser¡¡¡¡....buut it's bcause that's everything I am...And about my fuckin' day...I went to another casting...whatever...bff...I grinned like always and act..my life is just a huge and stupid theatre where I can become a happy person....
Otherwise, I would probably die, but that's why I really admire the character of bree van de kamp...it is just that she can act...and shows like a perfect woman....It's true, but it is real...lokok....I feel like I don't have the control of what is happening in my life...but I'm not gonna cut myself, because the scars must disappear....My arms should be perfect, my lips must smile...and welcome to the theatre again......

mm..asuntos de negocios

2dias es mi plazo 20 dolares estan en juego, martin es mi adversario..mejor yo les cuento luego..
personajes:
raul
nani
que deben hacer?
chisme
si ocurre 20 a favor
si no...en contra

ojala ocurra
jaja
con eso me compro mi reanimation..
wiiii

Cry or smile???

Smile...that's the only answer 4 me....If I wanna cry, I just smile, If I'm angry, and someone is hurting me...I just smile...why?...because I know that I'm better than them and also she's just a teacher....and I'm gonna earn more money....more happiness...and It's the last year she's my teacher..so'.....I'm happy...just 10 days...I'm going to survive.....yeaaahh..that's why I smile¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡